Ever since I was a child I’ve loved maps. I remember being five years old sitting in the back seat giving my grandparents directions. “No, don’t take a left, take a right. No, don’t take a right, take a left.” Of course, my directions were useless, but I loved holding the map either way. I guess you could say I loved the feeling of being in control.
I still love that feeling, but sadly MY directions for life are still useless. Not in a directional, geographical way. That sense is fully intact and quite keen. But, I have a problem not knowing where my life will lead. I truly already know the end destination. It’s just the part in the middle that scares me. Terrifies me. Intimidates me.
I don’t like living scared. My bookshelves are littered with “self-help maps,” so to speak, books I’ve bought to tell me things I already know. My inbox is cluttered with daily devotionals that point me to passages I’ve already read. My mind is muddied with insecurities that have no business being there.
In St. Paul’s second letter to the Corinthians, we find this powerful verse: For we walk by faith, not by sight. Our path to salvation and the kingdom of God is one we must walk in faith – even if that means not knowing at all where we’re going. It means giving up control to gain a clarity and conviction not resulting from anything in this world.
Psalm 37 explains to us why martyrs in the church were willing to die for their faith: The steps of a man are guided aright by the Lord. And he shall desire His way. When he falls, he shall not be broken to pieces. The Lord supports him with His hand.
The Lord guides our steps if we ask him. We don’t need to worry about the road map – the Bible gives us everything we need to know. His word is already in our hands, in our heads and in our hearts. No earthly map will get us where we’re going. But, earthly influence can surely stop us from getting there as quickly. Insecurity and fear choke my faith, like the seed fallen amongst thorns (Luke 8). I know Satan has dominion over fear because in the first chapter of Joshua the Lord says, “Behold, I have commanded you. Be strong and courageous. Do not be cowardly or fearful, for the Lord your God is with you in all things, wherever you go.”
Do my insecurities stem from a fear of being alone or feeling unworthy? How can that even make sense if I truly believe we’re all made in God’s image? God is love. I am his child, and he would never give me a spirit of self-loathing or self-doubt. Even in this fallen state, He delights in us and orders our lives according to how much we ask of him and how much we give back to him. We’re all his children. If I can cultivate a spirit that’s always at home with Him, I won’t need a map to help me get back. Will you join me?